I'm sure other moms and dads have experienced this too. That moment when someone close to you (a parent, grandmother, sibling, etc) shares news about his or her daunting health. Even if it is something you can "prepare" for like cancer or another debilitating disease, it does not make this feeling any easier.
The feeling I am talking about is when you hear saddening news and it breaks your heart....but not necessarily for you. It breaks your heart for your kids. Moments your children will not get to share with this person because this said person's days are numbered. Knowing that your children are so young that they probably won't remember this beautiful human being that was such a huge part of their life.
Of course I think of how sad it is for me to lose these people that I love so much too. But it is gut-wrenching sadness that overwhelms me when I think of my kids not growing up with these people that mean so much in their lives.
It is in these moments that I realize how much my children mean to me. I never want them to not have the opportunity to grow up with people that love them so much. But sometimes, a lot of times, I am not in control and I have to accept that I can't have the people I love around forever.
I just didn't realize how soon some things in life would happen. And for that reason, as I sit with hope and prayers that these people will be around longer than I could possibly dream, I am saddened....deeply saddened by the thought that my kids will have to say goodbye to these wonderful people one day.
I totally feel ya on this one. It breaks my heart each time Trevor accomplishes something I know my Grandma would love to hear about. Or just seeing how he is growing. But I try to remember that they are seeing it all - from above. I keep her alive by constantly telling him about her and showing him photos. He was only 18 mos when she passed but he will know her :) I'm sure you're doing like things for Aiden!
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