Ahhh Aiden, my sweet Aiden. I feel so blessed to have him call me mommy. Watching him grow up and discover each and every little thing is certainly a joyful experience for both of us. Rewind back to a few months ago- with these same feelings of course. Seeing everyone having babies made me so excited for them and what was in store for their future. The overwhelming feeling of love that would be engulfing them as it had me back in August 2013. I felt myself start to get the itch....
I'd been having issues with birth control and it just wasn't agreeing with my body. Jamon and I had decided that when Aiden turned two, we would try for one more. But with the BC issues, I really wanted to get off of it sooner. So we talked. Were we ready to take the plunge and try for number two? Why not? At least this way I could get the pregnancy over with and only work hard once more to get all the weight off. We agreed I would get off the BC and what happens would happen, right?
But damn- did I forget how easy it was with Aiden. It seems I can just think about being pregnant and it happens. Literally the moment I stopped taking the BC, I found myself pregnant with number two. I thought, seriously? I don't get to "try" for a little bit longer? Of course I was excited- I just didn't expect it to happen so quickly! Here was an early Christmas present for us- a new baby due to arrive in August 2015 making Aiden and baby number two for me exactly two years apart.
My excitement quickly turned into the first trimester blues! And I don't mean I was sad- I was sick as a dog! So soooo tired, not being able to keep anything down (I lost five pounds in a week!), and terrible headaches that I could only take Tylenol to relieve. I literally missed every event I was invited to the month of December. I was down for the count. I thought, what have I gotten myself into? Take it back!!! HA! Funny how quickly I forgot how hard some parts of pregnancy can be! I currently have roughly two and a half weeks left of the first trimester so I imagine it will get better soon (crossing fingers).
In my opinion, the first trimester can be the hardest on your body. Amazing isn't it? How a strawberry sized being can suck the freaking life out of you? I guess it is a blessing in disguise that you quickly forget the hard parts of pregnancy, otherwise you wouldn't be doing it again. But I am a strong woman (hear me roar! HA) and I know I will get through this. I'm just not one of the lucky ones who has a breezy easy pregnancy.
Even the birth (I don't even want to think about it- anxiety overload) was the hardest thing I have EVER done in my life. I thought I would never get Aiden out of me. The nurses try to encourage you. "Push harder! You are almost there! You can do it!" I can't tell you how many times I heard this and I was still pushing and literally ready to pass out. Let's hope it's a little easier this time around.
I'm excited for our new venture. But with a new baby also comes a need for a new home. So this will be a big year for us. I can't wait to share my journey with you. The good, the bad and the ugly!!
